A sideways glance into the mind of filsmyth (previously Phil Smith), author of Virtual Dreamer.

Sunday, July 05, 2009

too much and not enough

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I have too much going on and at the same time, not enough.


Soon I may have my own website... Maybe you think I already have one, the Nation of Earth member site -- but though I've probably been treating it as 'my' site, it's supposed to be for all sentient beings on and near Earth.


The new site is to be for me and my novel, Virtual Dreamer, and the idea is to present the novel online as it unfolds. What I want is for it to be a member site like NoE, but with a lot of its content restricted to a select few friends -- obviously I want the novel to be secure, but I think it would help my process to be able to 'publish' my writing online, and maybe even write it right there on the site.

Meanwhile I would like to use one forum section as my personal blog (yes, what Phil's Mythos, right here, serves as for the time being), while another section would be for discussion and feedback.


There may very well be a way to offer subscriptions and/or a pay-as-you-go, chapter-by-chapter purchase. Am I being presumptuous? I may be an unpublished author working on his first novel, but if the first chapter or two can be presented free-of-charge, I don't think it's unreasonable to expect that a certain percentage of readers would be willing to pay a small fee to not only experience more of the story, but to be among the first to do so.

Really, I don't have much of an understanding of what motivates people to spend, and the only motivation I myself have for even considering the sale of my work in this manner is that the possibility of even a slight income might help to get my family to allow me more computer time (we all share one device).

Just having a site on which to publish, I think, will help my process immensely. Money be damned.



Of course I could just write it all offline, with a file for each chapter in a folder, but what I've become accustomed to is composing posts ONline, out there and accessible. Even if I just copy & paste from an offline composition...



Anyway, back to the subject line: My mind writes checks that I as a physical being in this chaotic world have trouble covering. I have too many ideas and projects for me to be able to deliver on them all, and this problem is compounded every time I think of something new. Too much to do, not enough actual doing.

Yet the novel incorporates many of my daydreams, so it becomes an ultimate expression.



Is there a complete thought above?

I like beer. In the early stages, I'm loosened up and ready to share. As my writing progresses, with beer as my beverage it gets more and more difficult to remain coherent.

Regardless of whether any of this post makes sense, I've reached the point where making sense takes second banana.

Wish me luck in sleeping this off.



filsmyth
05July2009



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